I have always been tough on myself in both my personal and professional lives. In school, I experienced severe, handicapping anxiety before tests. In each job I have held, I strive to be and do the the best I possibly can, even if my heart is not in the work. In relationships, I often give so much to the other person that my needs are not met. I am giving and giving but not getting what I need in return. No matter what it is that I am doing, I want to shine.
I went through a pivotal moment on this journey a few months ago. I was no longer the person going to others for help and advice. I found my groove, and it was working. Others saw this and people started coming to me for help and advice, for that proverbial pat on the back. I was (and still am) considered to be a success; someone who lived through it. I changed my life for the better, and therefore, knew have something to offer in helping others. Though I believe this to be true and most definitely want to be in this role, it is sometimes difficult when I am still in the process of working toward my own goals. I suppose I always will be, though. Working for something more, going after a new goal, locking in a new achievement.
Today I am choosing to shine. I am embracing how far I have come and looking forward to the journey that lies ahead. I will not listen to any ghosts from my past telling me that I am not good enough. I made changes for life, not just for a short period of time. I want continued results. I want to be the best I can be. I will continue to get stronger, more knowledgeable and gain more confidence. I know that with continued dedication and focus I will achieve all that I want. I have it down on my end, but just need a little thumbs up from others every now and then.